a work in progress

I am a work in progress. I am trying to work on many things about myself . One of them being my body, another: my attitude and another very important one is my cleanliness. When we were in the states I kept our house pretty clean but when I look at our house here I am ashamed of myself. It is never clean the way it should be. I hate to do dishes, in the states we had a dish washer... they are hard to come by here and we have no room for one anyway. Also, I have a hard time doing a load of laundry the whole way through... We have to hang the laundry out to dry because even though we have a 'new' dryer it still takes two hours to dry and the things are still not all the way dry. So there is enough room on the line to put a full load and a half out.... well what about the other half, or the other two loads that need to be done today!? In the states I would do three or four loads on my off day and be done with it and not mess with it all week long. Here I have to try to get some done through the week and I just don't have that time so my husband is stuck doing it on his off days and is none to happy with me about it. He is great about doing the dishes so I don't mind trying to get the laundry so he doesn't have to worry with it.
Anyway, I am working hard on most days to reach my goal of May 1; other days... mostly just times I slip and fall and have a hard time pulling myself back up. Like today, I went bowling... well I had 2 and 1/2 small cups of soda and some tater-tots with ketchup. And! I didn't even find time for they gym.
Oh well; I know what I want and it is only me that can get it.

Our baby girl

We have done three chemo treatments with our pup now and her tumor has shrunk! We are so excited and hope that it continues on the same path of getting smaller! She got sick this time... she has thrown up three times after the treatment. But, she seems to be doing much better now. Well, I will keep posting on her and let you all know how things are going.
Oh by the way, we did not get to have our pictures last week because it was raining. We hope to be able to have them tomorrow... but we will see.

May 1, 2011

I have set a date to meet my goal. I have been very interested in having a baby for about two years now and My husband and I have been talking about for that long. We have talked about it before and I have always wanted to have his children, but here lately it has gotten more..... pressing? I am getting older and I would love to have my husbands children. I always wanted four of them, but with me getting older and us still not trying, I only see two as possible. I have made myself a date to get into shape so I can be the healthiest for our children; My date: May 1, 2011. I am not really worried about a number on the scale but I am shooting for about 110 to 115 pounds. I am more interested in how my body feels and how healthy I am by May 1. I have told my husband that if by then I am not in shape then I will drop the whole baby talk and we won't worry with it.
Well, I started the gym on Wednesday and went back Thursday, however I was not allowed to go to the gym on Friday and Today, Saturday I skipped. Oh and I went hog wild and had three sodas, muffins for breakfast and some chips, (about a handful). I don't know how tomorrow will be but I know Monday will be better. I know I needed a few days off because my body hurt so bad, but I do feel awful about not working out today. I know I can make my goal and this is my own goal I set. I think that working out will help me be a better wife to my husband and I know it will make him happier for many reasons.
Well, I will keep posting on my progress.
Oh!! We go for our first set of family pictures in the morning if it is not raining!!! I am so very excited! If you know my I will have the pictures up as soon as I can!